Looking 4 Luv

Have you ever loved someone that did not love you back? What an awful feeling to know that the object of your desire has no need for you. How heart breaking it would be that if you did everything you this person just to find out that they were taking all you have done for them and squandered it,thrown it away like out trash. I think God feels the same way when we ask from Him but don't ask for Him. Most times if we would be honest about it we would find that we in pray always seek His hand and rarely seek His Face. We want prayers answered, not to spend time with the Creator of everything. If you read this and know that what it says is true then make a change in how you approach Him. His Son died so that we could have life and life more abundant. The abundantness comes from spending time with the one who loves us like no-bodies business.

Best wishes for some great time with your Father.

Into the deep unknown.

I look back over my Blog titles and I should have seen it coming. The slipping into murky water. You know what I am talking about, like when you look into a pond that has a green scum on it and you wonder how deep it is or what lurks beneath the slim. Have you ever been in that position? Waiting to see if your next step will be your last and then the mud sucks you under. Moving slowly into the unknown. I guess that is where we are residing in these times. The only stable thing that we can hang on to like a vine hanging down from the trees above is the hand of God... We'll Talk later!!!

Ouch!

I can't remember ever having this much emotional pain. Wow I did not see this coming. I sure feel like I have been blindsided. I have seen less damage on when animals attack. I am bleeding inside. I hurt because someone thinks so little of me. It is one thing to fail when you have not tried, but to fail in someones sight and you have poured your blood, sweat and tears into the process and then be chopped off at the base. I feel used and discarded like a door mat that is long past it's prime. Wow how must have Jesus felt when they disposed of His efforts. I search my self for any validity to their claims. Am I that bad? Have I failed to the point of no return, and meaning well all along. Am I so dense that I can't see that maybe they might be right. The only clear view from all this is that I am just the head of a so called failing church. There are those who were attacked right along with me and they don't even know it. We are called Biblically illiterate because of me of course. We don't measure up because we don't know the scriptures like we should. That is my fault to because I don't teach them in the right way. Bla,Bla, blaa, Blaaaa. Many words to say I am bleeding from an attack from someone that i thought was a friend. A brother in Christ. At one time I considered him a confidon. Ouch! It Hurts. Thank you Lord that I know my call is sure because by this persons advise I should go back to working on airplanes. Jesus how do you love like you do? I don't want to even though i told then I did love them. Forgive me God!